Insomnia

Restless nights. I dont feel sleepy at all. Wth ? Well there isnt excessive or unpleasant noise. The room temperature comfortable enough. Withdrawal from drugs ? Nah..just nicotine and I never limit my total daily intake. Lol. Hmm..guess im too stressed out maybe ? Or depressed ? But what ? zzz. Its not like im obsessed with anyone right now. No more falling for you. Seriously no. Sigh jobless, penniless. Tiff wrote down a list of drinks and snacks before she went off with San. Then I went to carrefour alone to get everythin in the list. Lol. Forgive me. I was too boring. Haha. And and I made two big pots of anchovies porridge today. Haha ! Awesomeness ♥ Sigh 630am now and am still awake. Later gotta wakeup early. Kill me.

p/s Is craving for pink kuihs again & listenin to Goodbye to you by Mich Branch. Sigh. Wth is wrong with me.

This is killin me.

Went to Genting again with bunch of friends. Cy, Jyn, the Bday girl, Siu, Eng, Her gf, and Siokling. So effin cold. My god. Beh tahan seriously. Had kaya bun and some weird drink from starbucks. Passion fruit tea. To keep myself warm. Brrr. Headed back around 3am. Then all of a sudden Siu said she wants soup. Lol sweat. Then went to mamak She ordered chicken soup. The funniest part was she doesnt even know what's kambing. Haha ! Today is sucha boring day. No work. No money. No yumcha. No entertainment. Listening to some sickening emo songs. Sigh. Wth is wrong with me.

Pichas.

Yudan, Shu rong, Kenix, Nson, Mich and Me :p

Poppy night out :D

I got pretty depressed. Ive been thinkin obsessively about something stupid and is tryin really hard to listen to what my gut is telling me. How idiotic. Lol. I slept most of the day. Fag like as if I get ciggs for free. Lol. One thing that really triggered my thinkin I went to Poppy lastnight. LOL. My housemate, San kept askin me to go with her. With Ming, Siew Wei, Tiff. I was quite spaced out till Nson came to find me. I went to their table. Kenix, Yudan, Mich, and Su rong ? Lol they were really shocked cause I seriously nv been to club. Goodie goodie girl :D Haha. I took bout 20minutes of familiarizing myself with the place, had couple of drinks and then I was ok steady. Lol. Drank quite alot. We were really drunk. I fuckin puked in Nson's car. Damn geli. Had a great night with them though :) I had fun this time. Seriously. Then..very happening. Kenix drove all the way up to Genting. Haha *bows*
Had chips and few sticks of ciggs. Guess everyone was really exhausted. I came home this morning. Too much of alcohol consumption causes headache, nausea, gas cramp and bloating. Feel so sick to my stomach. Anyway took quite alot of pichas. Will upload them soon. PLS NO MORE DC. Haha.


p/s Sorry bout your car. HAHAHA.

It sounds like my head wants one thing my heart wants another.

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I have no updates. And am really lazy to recall every happening things that happened lately. I have been feeling quite empty inside. Quite depressed and its not going away. Why do i always fall for the ones that ive promised myself I wouldnt fall for ? Fallin for someone who i dont think she'd be interested in me even if I told her I liked her ? Im so unbelievably scared of gettin hurt afta ex and ex scandals left me in messy states. Scared of ever gettin involve in a relationship again. Whatever i do..ive tried not to sit being bored cause i know my mind is bound to wander off back to her. Nowadays I spent alot of time doing something. Out with friends. This way my mind is usually too hammered to think bout anythin else. Its just abit shit really. I suppose these feelings will go away soon ? I mean i hav yet to fall for her but i can feel myself fallin for her isnt good ? I wish i had control of my feelings sometimes. When I see her..i'll get butterflies in my stomach.

And I highly doubt she feels the same way. Am really tired of playing games in my mind when i cant even balance my feelings. Things just not working out the way I'd hoped. I wont wanna define whats happening right now. Also, wont wanna rush into anything. Guess time will show me what her true intentions are.

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p/s Thanks Nson for accompanyin me throughout the nights *tumbuk shoulder*

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